North node Cancer in the 9th house

9th house is ruled by Sagittarius the fire sign known for being blunt and honest being a truth seeker an adventurer

Cancer the water sign of family , emotions and home

This assessment has yet to be completely explored but i wanted to get a little bit on paper to get me kick started in exploring the deeper constructs of this placement in my chart

What I share is not a direct reflection of how I perceive things now; this is an example of the placement and experience I resonate associated with it.

The question opposed is

What are you afraid of when you think of your north node placement?

This is an intriguing placement in life. I have valued love and the idea of family for as long as I can remember. I often found myself playing house from a young age into young adulthood. I would use my playing house skills to showcase my value for a person to love me. But this mask only lasted so long. It never gave me quite the fulfillment I was seeking. Growing up I experienced motherhood from a young age due to the lack of parenting skill my mother had to provide care to her other children. This was my job to be the mother to these kids when I myself was a child. Children were never ideal for me. I knew that wasn't what I wanted for myself. But I still found myself playing the mother role in other aspects of my life. I was a house party mom. The one who made sure everyone had everything they needed to enjoy themselves. The one who tended to the too intoxicated. Being a mother was something I was reluctant to be. The responsibilities that come along with raising another human being sounded terrifying as can be but was a gift of unconditional love I wasn't sure how to receive. I found myself trying to escape these responsibilities. There are a ton of ways to avoid these responsibilities. But those never seemed like the right option. It took more strength for me to show up as a mother than it did to walk away. I had to learn what it meant to be a mother. I had to learn lessons in life from the children I created to stand in the power of being a mother.

When I marry the energies of cancer in the 9th house I see the mother child relationship as one of the student teacher roles. Being a mother is a lot like being a teacher and a student at the same time. As much as we have to teach our children, the more we have to learn from them.

Blessed Be beautiful beings

Mistical being